Day 30 — (FMF) — voice
They say trauma steals your voice and leaves you feeling powerless and I’d have to agree.
Over the past few years, I’ve watched a dear loved one suffer the after effects of trauma or what is called PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) and unknowingly that traumatized me. I was suddenly left voiceless in the relationships that mattered most to me.
I could not believe nor understand what was happening to me. There was so much I wanted to voice and yet I found myself silent, unable to speak.
I began this blog in earnest two years ago but for more than a year, I’ve remained silent — hardly writing or posting anything. It’s what the enemy does — to silence God’s children.
On one of those days when I found myself unable to speak, I went to the basement to sit in the laundry room and cry. And as the tears came, I saw a small child with her mouth taped shut. I did not know quite what to do with that image but I knew God wanted to set me free.
And this journey of getting my voice back — the one God gave me has been a long one — one which I still travel. Thankfully, the fear and the shame are no longer present in the same way as they were. That itself is a victory worth celebrating.
Yes, I’m getting my voice back and I’m going to use it for God’s Kingdom. I am NOT going to let the enemy shut me up. Not only will I write here in this space on the web but Lord willing, I’m going to speak as well.
I’m finally at a point in my life where I actually believe I have something to say — whether anyone listens or not, I’m going to use my voice.
I believe God has given each of us a unique voice — not only an audible one but one that comes from our hearts. And I believe it’s our God-given destiny to use our voice to speak life and light in this dark world.
The tape has come off!
Thank you for following the heart that God gave you. This short article has helped my family tremendously! It’s like you took the words right out of my head (or heart for that matter). My 14 year old son has been non-verbal his whole life. But, I see now it’s an attack from the enemy and has left my son in paralyzing fear and speechless. I am suffering the same fear of sharing my testimony. However, you have offered us hope with sharing yours and we will go on together to open our hearts and share. To God be all the glory. May the Lord keep you and make His face shine upon you and shower you with His favor. In Jesus name. Amen.